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In my first experiences here, I found myself wanting to leave, and yet always being drawn back. I could never understand why.

I would leave. And come back. I would get angry. I would be sad. I would feel hurt. I would laugh. I would cry. I would celebrate. No matter what I felt, I was drawn here, to this place, because you were all here offering me things. I couldn't understand what those things were. And maybe I am still formulating the why of these things, however right now in this moment, I feel utterly heart-blown at a beautiful understanding and knowing - I have chosen all of this.

I think, for the first time in this incarnation, I can honestly understand what this means now; to choose. We are all choosing. My god that feels so wonderful!!!!

Every pain I have felt has been chosen. Every laugh I have shared has been chosen. Each vile word I have read or typed has been done by my own choice. The times I have run and the times I have returned, have been my choice.

THis sounds so absurd and pedantic to someone not in this essence of mine right now, but I am so delighted - I get it!!! It's all choice!

This is something I've understood academically for so long, but to feel it in my energy, to feel it wash through me, to feel the enormous grin on my face as I look back at a life of choice in ALL directions... it's so funny!

Choosing every single experience.

I choose to thank you. Each and every single one of you. The good talks, the hard talks, the name calling, the bashing, the idiocy and absurdity and beauty and triviality.

Gosh it's so humbling and impossible to actually put into words.

I'm free to choose, all of this, anything I want. In any way! At any time.

I'm like a little child who just discovered a toy that had gone missing so long ago I'd forgotten I ever had it to begin with.



You're free to choose, and you do so each moment, and that makes me smile so warmly, feel so free for you - for me - for us.

The pain isn't real. The heartache isn't real. The anger isn't real. It only feels real because we choose to experience it in that way.

Yeah, these words have been written here so many times, I've read them so many times, in so many ways, and yet today... today I CHOOSE to understand it on a molecular level.

I can't wait to experience what I choose to experience next!!!!

Will I choose to experience it as pain? As loss? With fear? Will the spider escalate me into a choice to feel victimized, or small, or fearful? Will the next financial windfall find me choosing a feeling of false comfort? How will I handle the next health problem? Will I remain graceful? Or will I choose folly again?

I will choose!

I love this forum. Each of you. The books NDW wrote... it was almost what, 4 years ago I came here? Right after my dad died and I read CwG 1-3. And here we are all this time later, and I am actually experiencing the words I read... it's as though no time has passed at all.

Right on

Choose joyfully - I exalt you.

There is this fascinating sense of lightness in realizing and understanding what I feel now.

I light-heartedly quote "Contact" with Jodi Foster - ' no words, should have sent a poet '

Dee,

I like the way you said this.

It shows you are experiencing the three laws interacting at once.

you are aware of what you attract, you are aware of what you are focusing or intending (choosing), and you are aware that you are allowing....
thus there is a feeling of harmony and flow

In another room the three laws can be intepreted as body (attract), mind (focus) and soul (allow) and when they three are interacting there is awareness of Self (harmony, stillness, non-identity with body, mind or soul).

The Self is choosing through you and you are choosing through Self.

There is one thing to take notice of here.....you can't combine the laws into one law....and you can't consider one law and ignore the others. The laws interact as one.

If you try to combine or separate....you will lose awareness (expereince) of Self.

What normally happens when a person experiences what you are experiencing is that they will try to identify with one law....like choosing..... and believe it is the answer on how to experience consciously....and they often become frustrated when it doesn't work.

Choosing alone is not a truth..... it is more like a perspective.

Echart tolle describes the perspective really well.

It is like the sun rising in the morning.

In truth...the sun does not rise, it always remains still....yet we experience the beauty of it rising.

In the same way, we are not choosing, there is no choice (for who is there to choose if we are all)....yet we experience the beauty of choosing.

So choosing in itself doesn't create experience consciously.

There is an interaction going on, between body mind and soul, between the laws of attraction, intentional focus and allowing.... and it creates and awareness of something beyond all three....an awareness (experience) of Self.....

The laws interacting is like watching your/our Self choosing.

Kristian

You make such a wonderful point Kristian, it isn't a choice as much as an allowance, or a recognition...

I feel silly. Like I've walked into the same room every day for 38 years and seen the same hat sitting on the same table, but never really noticed it before.

You know?

no it is still a choice....it is just also more than a choice......

on its own, choosing or intentional focus doesn't exist

on its own, allowing doesn't exist....(what is there to allow if there is no intentional focus or choosing.)

on its own, the attracted lifes experiences don't exist.

but together they do..

this is why when one expereinces strongly one law or perspective and tries to hold onto it....it disappears.

at any moment I would advice someone to see what they are attracting into their life experience.

then see what they are intentional focusing (which may or may not be what they attracting)

then see how much they are allowing or releasing who they choose to be...... to the universe.

with each perpestive....there is a little shift that goes on within as the one moves in isness...

These laws give so contrasting viewpoints that when one is aware of the laws at work....it takes up all their attention all the time.

usually I lose awareness of the laws because I try to combine them with some idea....
This is the greatest challenge for me right now.
to stop trying to think what the different viewpoints are providing....

it takes great honesty to be aware of the laws at work.....

Jiving and Singing with you, Dee! Happy to share in your Eureka!

Kristian

I have found myself in the position of observing and reminding myself a great deal this last couple of days. The old persona/habits rise up easily, without so much as a flinch, and then I observe myself falling prey to my own sense of disconnect, and then remind myself again that all of *this* is my choice.

Every great a-ha or epiphany I've ever had has always been followed by ample opportunity to put it into practise - apply it. This is where I am. I suspect I will be practising and applying *this* for at least a few more thousand lifetimes.



But isn't that what this choice is about; being here in the skin, duality driven egos... choosing to choose again and again until the choice is clear; the only choice that ever needs be made is LOVE.

I am reminded of an episode of star trek the new generation where data, the android, gets an emotional chip. The first time he experiences emotions.

He is at the bar tasting a drink....and he goes...yuek this is totally awful.....and he is smiling broadly because he is so happy to experience the emotion "awful"

There was a time ten of thousands of years ago Dee were you chose to experience disconnection....

You saw it as wonderful choice....the Self saw it as a wonderful choice.

The choice was/is/will be made in the NOW, the only time it can be chosen, and yet it remains an experience now totally finished. (funny I mean't to say not instead of now..hmm)

Finish experiencing it Dee with a smile on your face and your next choice will become more clear within you.

You can choose to be a person who has resulted simply from what has happened, or from what you have chosen to be and do about what has happened. -B1-P122


LOVE this synchronistic reminder!

You can choose to be a person who has resulted simply from what has happened, or from what you have chosen to be and do about what has happened. -B1-P122